call me attention seeking, call me an idiot. but i'm sad. that's that.

i doubt anyone will remember that on friday next week it shall be my birthday. i've been to bf for so long, and yet till now, no one has ever organised anything to surprise me. i feel that all that i have done for them is like something they think is natural, a definite must.

but gosh, i have feelings too you know.

i feel unappreciated. i feel worked. i feel... worthless in the eyes of them. no one will ever give a flying fuck about me. no one. only my parents, my brother, my ze. i really just wish someone would make my day, make me happy. i'm always the one trying to cheer people up. why won't anyone cheer me up? it gets old.

remember, i have feelings too. i like to feel at least appreciated. if not, what the hell.

bah.